JustaLazyDay. zZzZzZ

when someone is alone on a lazy day, sitting on the couch in their pjs, eating ramen noodles, watching mindless televison (such as court tv....) what does your mind wander on to? well it depends on what kind of person you are. If you are a teenage girl, it could be many things. a) a boy that you may or may not be kinda stuck on...(but Im not a chaser so plllt) b) drama with the friends. boy and girl alike, tho surprisingly its more of a boy thing. hmmm. you can draw your own conclusions on that one. c) school but not very often. or d) the most likely of all....drumroll....herself.

The fact is, pretty much every teenage girl is a little more attached to herself more than anyone else, unless of course you are in love, in which case i wish i was you. Since I have stumbled upon that topic, I might as well dig into it.

Love. one of the easiest and the hardest things to live with, depending on whether or not the feelings are reciprocated. If they are, the only things you have to worry about is screwing it up, which if you were yourself from the beginnning, dont yo-yo your partner, and have a happy attitude, you shouldnt have a problem with. However, if they arent....good luck with that because its pretty damn hard to deal with. Im not saying that things wont get better for you at all, in fact i hope more than anything that they do, but if i was you, Id get a pet that likes you because being alone for more than a couple hours....on those lazy days....is usually pretty much torture. It gets harder and harder, and you get weaker and weaker, until that blade or that gun looks pretty appealing. I most definitely do not endorse that AT ALL. Ive been there, it was a really scary place to be. Thats the hardest point to regain a hope for life and love and all that mushy gushy crap (that even the hardest of hearts desperately long for) We all know those players who just use other people but one day, when playing around is but dreadfully either boring or unwanted, even the players will grow up. (of course by then almost everybody good will be gone. then who has got the last laugh?)

THrough all this negative insight, you gain a positive conclusion. (just think really hard...)
post it in a comment, whatever you think it may be :)

There is ALWAYS drama. :P

Hello fellow bloggers,
Well in the world of Alex, things are kinda rocky. One of my besties has kinda left me for a few days. NOt without reason of course. Although, Im used to people texting back and begging for my forgiveness, even if there is nothing wrong. Dont call me boasty, cuz im telling the truth. But not this guy. Oh no. We are apparently "taking a break." Quote unquote. Its been a couple days. Ill be honest, im not going to text him first. Even though it was definitely my fault that he wanted to take said break. Regardless, hes the one who started the break, and he can be the one to end it. Im done chasing guys. THey are just trouble period. Call me a heartbroken brat. and youd be right on target. I dont doubt the fact that I miss him, but recent events and friendships have inspired some stubbornness which i have no intentions of smothering. Ill be nice to my friends and nice to my enemies, but my head is my own domain and i dont really think that being stubborn and not chasing him is being mean. Its just not being attentive. Forgot to mention. He liked me. Dont know if he still does with this mess, he says he doesnt. But i dont know if i believe that quite yet. CAll me stupid but i like myself, even if I have gotten a little more stone hearted. People have told me Im worth the trouble so why not believe them?

...Wow look at that. He texted me. :)
Guess things do work out for me in the end sometimes.

Love, Alex